Everything at Once

  Sometimes I feel like I'm one big contradiction. Or maybe a ton of little contradictions. Either way I can never really keep one mind on anything. My opinion changes, my favorites change, my thoughts on people change. The other day when I was typing up Chicken Soup (Sept. 21, 2015) and as I was writing all I could think about was that one post I think I did (I can't keep them straight) a million years ago about my tragic back story. I was essentially, in my mind, shunning a practice I had participated in. Maybe that's just me overthinking it but whatever.
  My opinion on a girl I have known for a while has changed as well. I used to complain about her and talk about how bossy she could be, but this year she has been immensely kind and friendly to me. The way I view her has completely changed.
There are dozens of other examples about me being slightly hypocritical without meaning it. A song that sums up my existence pretty well right now (out of the many...) is 'Everything at Once' by Lenka.
These are some of the lyrics:

"As shy as a fox, as strong as an ox. 

As fast as a hare, as brave as a bear.

As free as a bird, as neat as a word.

As quiet as a mouse, as big as a house.

All I want to me, All I want to be...

is everything, everything at once."

The whole song goes like this (as long as a road, as ugly as a toad) and it lists so many things that she wants to be that aren't very good at coexisting together. (as hard as nails/ as sweet as sugar and everything nice) Can't I be everything at once? Why do I always have to be the same person? Why does everybody else have to be the same person? In science it's often said that the only constant is change. Change can happen over a lifetime n a great sweeping arch or in flashing shape shifter ways. What matters most is what we have to say now, it meant that much to us to say it in the past and it may change in the future. I may say that I will never like post pictures of myself, but who know? That may change.

THAT'S MY ACTUAL HAND