Since we have chromebooks at school, I can waste my time at lunch and draw on sketch apps instead of socializing, so I have taken full advantage of that opportunity. I don't really have any of my close friends at my lunch anymore, with all of the schedule switching, so I've been awkwardly hanging around Amazon's group of friends. They seem really nice, but... I'm still not really one of them, you know? Sometimes I really do just want to sit by myself and draw or read, but I know a lot of people, and I don't want to give the message "I'd rather sit alone than sit by you."
Maybe I should worry less about how people will react to my actions. Just do things, and then if there is a noticeable problem, then deal with it. Essentially just telling myself to only worry about visible problems.
That sounds good in theory, but I doubt I could ever not worry about what could happen. What else would I think about? I'd get bored.
By the way, I have this idea for a short zine series I want to make. I came up with the idea during General Conference because there were a lot of talks about joy, and how people are meant to be happy, even if it's hard to be. I started thinking about the sad girls trend. It's popular to be unhappy- if you are happy, then you are thought of as naive and oblivious. It's trendy to be gloomy,moody, whatever else teenage girls are 'supposed to be'. Not all girls are sad and broken, and that's okay. Sometimes we are sad and broken, but we will be okay. Some are sad and broken, but they're trying to be okay.
I want to call it simply 'Happy Girls', and talk about ways that we can feel happy, what makes us happy, other happy people, and how we can feel joy even when it seems impossible. I want to try to take apart the trend that says all teenage girls should be sullen and miserable. Sure we are sometimes, but it's not a requirement for being a girl. I don't want to ignore or demean people who aren't okay, I want to encourage people to try to be so. We can be happy, despite.
Anyway, I really want to invite a lot of people to work on it; close friends, family, and you guys! If you have something you would like to contribute; an art piece, a playlist, a list, a diary entry, a column, a how-to, a thought, WHATEVER. If it defines happiness to you, or your experiences with looking for it, then I want it. I want it. Email it to me, scan it, hand it to me (if you know me) and I will 99% probability put it in. I will post the pages here to the blog, and potentially Pinterest (I also may print it out. Who knows?)
Hope to hear from you guys.
Have a happy week.
